Old photographs can be such a nuisance. It makes you think if you've done justice to what was expected of you the day you were born. The hope and the happiness of your past life come in direct clash with your present state and aspirations. Wonder if given the opportunity we'd somehow erase some memories and moments captured by the camera. They say a picture is worth a thousand words, I believe a picture can be worth a thousand traumas.
Photographs hide the ugly side of life, the ugly truth behind those perfect moments. Even the most candid of them fail to show the gruesomeness of life. I wonder can you ever tell looking at a person that he/she is capable of ruining multiple lives and then very nonchalantly after decades apologize for his/her "mistake" ? And what should the victims do? After years of secrecy and veil of decency has been lifted how does one forgive and live life like nothing ever happened? It is said that God forgives the biggest of the sins if a person asks forgiveness genuinely, but then I've always been against emulating God.
How does one forgive and learn to live without pain when a person has always been subjected to it and very happily believes that it is what's keept them going? I wonder how does one begin again without all the hate and vengeance? How does one accept the love of the person they hate the most?
A part of me wants to help an acquaintance going through the trauma rather the moral dilemma of forgiving someone they once loved more than God Himself, but I am glad I can't. I can't imagine the awkwardness I'd be in if I had to answer these questions. I can't even tell the person to be strong because, they have been blamed yet again for everything falling apart and did try to erase the part where they made the mistake of existing in the first place. Yet today after seeing them from afar I do think that they are the loneliest a person can ever be. The apology took with it their only refuge...of belongingness. The hate, anger, trauma which was their solace and best friend has been separated from them. The person stands at a point of saving themselves or saving a few others they love.
I await the decision ….
