Dear God,
Sometimes I wonder is Heaven as chaotic and esoteric a place like Earth? The thought depresses me at times, because you see Earth isn't all that. To be honest it’s a pretty pathetic place for a 21 year old girl with a pansy heart. For starters what's with these eastern men and their obsession with marriage? Women get all the blame but ground reality paints a different picture. It's never I love you, it's always I love you and want to marry you. Why can't it just be I love you, end of story? Why this grotesque devious connotation of love?
I also, dear God, find it quiet uncanny and unjust that the most honest human beings have to go through tribulations that test their patience, values and truthfulness to the utmost. There are people whose strength and integrity I can only marvel, who earn respect (and there aren't many people I respect) through their actions and values rather than their status or position, their pride and arrogance; a tribute to their hardships and their struggle to make themselves better with each passing day, never shying away from hard work. Sounds too good to be true, but I've been blessed with two such individuals and I'm quiet thankful to You for them. I've also noticed, dear God, that people who denounce You, who refuse to even believe in Your existence live life king size, and then there's this thing about poverty, illness etc …. Nietzsche was so right when he said that one is punished most for one's virtues.
Don't you find us human beings stupid? I find us very stupid and delusional. We sort of believe that we matter in Your grand of scheme of things, just a way to humor ourselves. Talk about self effacement. We're also naïve enough to believe that we have the power to destroy Mother Earth through our actions, never mind the fact that She has destroyed human and other races so many times that it's tough to record, new mysteries are unraveled every day. We also like to humor ourselves now and then thinking we have power and control over Your domain.
However I've got to give it You for creating the funniest thing possible; a man's EGO. It never ceases to humor /amuse me. I mean yeah you made Bush, Nawaz Shairf, Firdous Awan ( a serious mishap) and other total waste-of-space-entities, but EGO is hands down the winner. I love the way a man hides his incompetency behind his EGO and calls it, his pride. I find those individuals who mistake their lack of self-respect/esteem for their tolerance, and don't-give-no-fuck attitude more hilarious. It's a weird balance You got there God, but then it is Your space after all.
There are like a million other things I gotta discuss with you but later. Love you much.
OVOT
